saddo

My life is incredibly convoluted and complex,if I was a writer ,I probably be understanderable...is that a word?.Basically,my life is about me,what i can get out of it ,selfish shitty me, I cant put into words what goes thru my mind when Ive been let down by people,I always think its my fault and really do beat my self up about it,I am a terrible friend cuz I got so few,Do i sound like a whiney,moany,whingin fuckin saddo?yes